Ohhhh.... I am bored. So I will write in here before midnight for once! Fancy that. Today was my 6.002 final (that's Circuits and Electronics for you non-numerical types). I was really nervous about it (rather more like 'scared silly'), but it wasn't as horrible as I was afraid it would be. It was tough, but not impossible. I hope I did all right... I'll find out in a week! Wow, I studied for that test as I have never studied before. I spent a lot of time preparing and felt like it didn't help... Hm. Now I still have to study for biology and math, but those aren't until Thursday and Friday. Doesn't mean I should slack off though - 6.042 isn't going to be easy either. Discrete Mathematics, ugh.
So I've been listening to the same CD over and over for the past few days. I've heard it about 7 times. I just played it a while earlier and kept thinking that I'd already heard the current song that was playing... But that was because I'd already played it two or three times earlier today. x_x Oh well, the music from Last Exile is good to work to - all strings and orchestral inspiration. Yay.
Final crunch-time makes me sad. Christmas is only a bit more than a week away, and I can't feel that at all. I can't look at anything beyond my upcoming tests. It really annoys me. Blaaah.... Christmas. It's a love-hate time of the year. I love Christmas because I get to go home and be with my family (and you should be able to tell by now that my family's pretty important to me). And I don't have to think about classes or school since the semester will be finished. And there's a tree. And usually snow. Lots of snow this year. Hm. But Christmas-time means Christmas shopping. Which I hate doing. The only good kind of shopping is grocery shopping but I can't very well give my sisters a loaf of bread or something. Arrgh... My mom's not going to be here for Christmas this year. She's going to California to help her parents move into their new apartment. They were originally going to go to China but it didn't work out, which is really too bad. Still, my grandmother just got out of the hospital so it's best that she doesn't go gallivanting off to the other side of the earth. I worry. I worry too much. But if I don't, then I only think of myself and that feels horrible and selfish. I've looked back over the past semester and wonder where the time went. Did I make myself useful for anyone? In the grand scheme of things, do I matter at all? I feel very isolated. I feel very alone. My friends are in my kitchen studying for economics and here I am punting biology and getting all depressed again. Geez, must be a real drag for you to be reading this, hm? My apologies.
Things to be happy about:
- My cell phone died but then it revived. Guess the battery was dead, and the charge light wasn't working. But it charged back up so I don't have to be so panicked about that.
- Going to see The Return of the King on Wednesday night. Even though the biology final's on Thursday morning. But it's Aragorn! And Legolas! And hobbitses!
- 6.002 is OVER! Hopefully I will have passed the course and not have to take it again because that would suck beyond belief.
- The Galaxy Angel manga is coming out in March. And there's more Di Gi Charat manga to be bought.
- I borrowed DVDs from the anime club to take home and watch. Lost Universe - I've been wanting to watch it for quite a while. Actually, if we had Slayers TRY, I'd finish that up, but we only have it on VHS, not DVD. *sniff*
- Maybe I'll see friends when I go home. And even if I don't, we're going to Florida. Where it's warm.
- I can draw.
- I can draw Jesper.
- Okay, I can go into the kitchen and hang out with the others and draw Jesper.
I shouldn't be depressed. There's so much for me to be grateful for. Buck up - just one more week and then my first semester as a cynical sophomore will be over.
- Flykyr Skysong
Current song: None
Current mood: Scatter-brained
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